Drowning, Drowning, Drowned

For my husband, Peter Gaffney, whom I love more than life itself.

From the start
I was
mesmerized
hypnotized
canonized
by you.

Movie star
handsome.
Silver hair
roman nose
ocean eyes.
I couldn’t
avert my glance.

Your mouth.
The mouth that
I had no idea
was capable of
offering such
ecstasy.
Leaving me
splayed
spasming
spent.

Your expression
of pure joy.
The treasure
of your
innocence.

I recognized
myself.
Like Narcissus
I could not stop
gazing
staring
gaping
at what felt
so familiar,
so knowable,
so visceral.

I knew
I was in danger
of falling
into the abyss.

Deep
down
drowning.
Far, far
below
sea level.

The temptation
was
too strong.
I was
powerless
against your
gravitational pull.

I fell in
and succumbed.
In your arms
I was
drenched in
your love
breathing in
our mingled essence.

Falling
Falling
Fallen.

So far gone
we are one.